Emo Nemo

There are a thousand things I love about my husband, but the best one has got to be how he willingly embraces the choices I make without any kind of judgement. Never the type to violently object to them, providing a sense of assurance that he knows exactly what I am doing. He gives me the appropriate space necessary and most importantly, trusts me well to know that I am entitled to my own decisions.

He rarely breathes down his expectations on me…to say that we are extremely alike in thinking is not a fact definitely, we are worlds apart sometimes, but I like how we respect each other’s mindset.

There have been so many occasions whereby I am thankful he walks along with me in the plans and decisions I make. Not ahead, not behind, but just right beside me, holding my hand…

Thank you Sadiq. I love you.

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One, Two… Three!

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15 September – we turn 3 today! Three years of awesome ups and downs. Not gonna sugarcoat it any other way but marriage is one heck of a journey which can drive you to insanity. Really. But of course, we won’t have it any other way. :p

I love how we always take the opportunity to steal time just to be together. Just the two of us, be it a lunch or a movie date, I know there is always a weekly day we try to set aside. Well we always have to rush home after that to our little man so such quality time is much love.

I love where we have come so far. Thoroughly blessed. With a handsome little hero and another sidekick in 3 months, with God’s will. We will be parents of two warriors and the near future forecasts itself to be a chaos – nowadays, we are almost always talking about the prospect of having two energizer bunnies around and I love how the picture we paint is pretty much full of colour.

I love how I still am very much in love with him. We have known each other for roughly 18 years and were in courtship for 5 years before finally tying the knot. There are just so many more things to learn about each other, what with parenthood coming into the picture. I believe we will discover so much more when we become parents of two, three, four and so forth (insya’Allah). Of course, we learn about each other’s quirks as a son/daughter, brother/sister and so on too.

Marriage is simply amazing…and I’m happy that Allah swt has blessed us this far. May He continue to shower His endless blessings on us.

Marriage is ugly, you see the absolute worst in someone. You see them when they’re mad, sad, being stubborn, when they’re so unlovable they make you scream. But you also get to see them when they are laughing so hard that tears run down their face, and they can’t help but let out those weird gargling noises. You see them at 3am when the world is asleep except you two, and you’re eating in the middle of the kitchen floor. You get to see the side of them that no one else does, and it’s not always pretty. It’s snorting while laughing, it’s the tears when it feels like it’s all crashing down, it’s the farting, it’s the bedhead and bad breath, it’s the random dances, it’s the anger and the joy. Marriage isn’t a beautiful thing, but it is amazing. It’s knowing that someone loves you so much, and won’t leave you even though you said something nasty. It’s having someone have your back no matter what. It’s fights over stupid things, like someone not doing the dishes or picking up after themselves. And it’s those nights you fall asleep in each other’s arms, feeling like there will never be enough time with them. It’s cleaning up their throw up, or just rubbing their back when they’re sick. It’s the dirtiest, hardest, most rewarding job there is. Because at the end of the day you get to crawl into bed with you best friend, the weirdest, most annoying, loving, goofy, perfect person that you know. Marriage is not beautiful, but it’s one heaven of a ride.

To my dearest best friend, happy 3! ❤

Love Math

When our little hero turned 6 months old last Monday, I took a while to reflect and found myself smiling to myself a lot. Major learning took place, no doubt and what was even sweeter was that the journey was filled with more meaningful discoveries about myself and my lovely husband. We were blessed with a baby right after we got married and while the idea of it was always adored by us, we always wondered about the “what ifs” that would inevitably occur once our life began as a family of three.

To be honest, my greatest concern had always been about as to whether my role as a wife would be compromised once my new life as a mother commenced. Thankfully, I am blessed with a partner who always puts his loved ones before himself and sure enough, he wasted no time in assuring me that things would be okay.

I always worried about whether my love would have to be divided with the arrival of our son. Little did I know that there is no such thing, but that love will always multiply within us. 🙂

Sayang my two handsome heroes in my life so much!

Lights Camera Action

I had been toying with the idea of having a maternity photoshoot (probably since before I got pregnant even, ha ha ha) and I told Sadiq that we must do it. At least for our first little one. Surprisingly enough, he agreed! To an outdoor one, no less.

Grabbed a deal off Groupon and thankfully, they had slots for the weekend after I booked it. I was worried that delaying it might mean that the opportunity would be gone since June weekends are pretty risky since baby could ‘pop’ anytime, so we managed to secure a slot on the last Sunday of May. Yey!

It was raining rhinos and buffalos when we approached Fort Canning though so we were praying mighty hard that the shoot will not be called off. I remember telling Sadiq that we will save this slot for when baby is out then, but lo and behold, those dark grey clouds cleared up and the weather was all sunny again. Double yey! Thank you Allah.

Pictures are not with me yet, it’ll take them some time to process the raw images and send them to me as I opted for the additional top-up deal. The photographer showed me a slideshow of the photos taken and I must say, that for such an affordable deal, we had an absolutely great time and I was also impressed by the pictures taken.

Will post them up soon when the images are with me. For the fun of it, here are my (berlapok) pre-wedding photoshoot pictures. Hehehehe.

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9 months of pure matrimonial bliss on this 15th. And I thought, counting down to the wedding was fast. Marriage life is sure kicking in fast ..and furious! :p

My Heart Outside My Body

We have started spring cleaning to welcome our little hunk in a …..month and a day’s time! Tomorrow is the 19th already which means baby will be here before we even know it.

I’m praying hard that he will arrive in June, simply because it’s the daddy to-be’s birthday month as well. I tease Sadiq every single time about this, “see, when baby comes out in June, I technically have the immunity from buying presents for you ‘cos I would have given you the most precious one and other presents simply won’t match up…….”

Of course, Sadiq will just turn a deaf ear to all that. But really, I’ve been sweet talking to my little boy to come out next month, it’d be even sweeter if he comes out on Sadiq’s birthday itself (25 June) which is absolutely not impossible since my EDD is 19 June, but hey melampau pulak kan ask for too much hehe…

What’s most important is he comes out whenever he’s ready. Allah is the best of planners, I know I’ll be in good hands when the time comes, in shaa Allah.

So yeah, back to spring cleaning for our little one. We have bought storage from Ikea for baby’s cute stuff and started on the laundry so far. Caught myself staring at the piles of tiny clothes the other day, it’s so surreal that I’m gonna be dressing up our baby boy in time to come.

I am going to be a mother and this quote sums up perfectly just how I have been feeling the past months.

“Making the decision to have a child – it’s momentous. It is to decide forever to have your heart go walking around outside your body.” – Elizabeth Stone

Tummy Talk

Oh wow, it’s been almost 3 months since I have neglected this space. Time just flies when you’re having fun and in my case, it’s been loads of fun caring for the little one in my tummy.

Baby is 34 weeks and 2 days old today ……how fast right!? It’s less than three weeks to full term, which means that by 29 May onwards, I’m actually good to ‘pop’ anytime. In shaa Allah.

Many have been asking me how I feel right now and whoa, the last time I felt this way was probably when I was counting down to my wedding. I’ve been blessed with a smooth pregnancy so far so I cannot be anymore grateful. Sure, the aches and nausea have been my very good friends for the past eight months or so, but hey, what’s a little sacrifice… Hehe, especially when it comes to welcoming my precious gift into the world soon enough. 🙂

Sadiq and I have been getting all the essentials and it would also be time for me soon to prepare my hospital birth bag in a few days’ time. We have agreed to leave it in the car for standby purposes.

And as I am typing this down, my little hunk is extra active right now… It’s as if he knows that he will be out soon… 🙂