Shanshine And Jazzyboy

Oh gosh, each time I type my blog URL, I get slightly shocked at the amount of months that have just gone by. It’s like I remember the last time I wrote something. It does not feel that long ago, yet lo and behold, it’s like more than six months. Whoops I guess I must always make a mental note to write more.

We have crossed the halfway line of 2017, can you believe it!? It is already July. My handsome boys are growing up so fast, too fast, in fact. Eyshan turned 4 last month and Eijaz is 19 months.

Our elder one is still a chatterbox – something which amuses us till no end, of course – it is pretty amazing how he has so much sass and drama in his daily conversations. I kid you not. I love to see how his eyes widen in excitement while his brows do a little dance as his lips perform its acrobatic moves during our usual chats.

He has so much energy that it is practically impossible to hinder him from moving about. He builds imaginary mountains made of sofa cushions and pretends he is scaling to the peak on them. He pretends he is running away from a monstrous situation and takes cover from the little cave he creates under the coffee table. The list goes on.

It is surely fascinating how he kept me entertained during the recent June holidays. Scratch that, both brothers truly kept me entertained and always on my toes, literally!

How not to? Eijaz is basically his big brother’s biggest fan and he copies every move. Quite a sight to see how he is absolutely adoring his speed nowadays and of course, Eyshan welcomes such a great play buddy. I love how he asks his brother this everyday, “Jaz, you want to play with Abang? You want? Okay we play, okay!”

Then I see the little bro walking behind him, with bouts of squeals and laughter, because he simply cannot wait to play with this exciting little fella.

My heart is full.

..Of course until I see their hands on some random toy that was just lying around and they start tugging away from each other where all it takes is a little, “hey, that is mine!” Oh, boys.

Okay I bluff, heart’s still full but perhaps I might just do an impersonation of a female Hulk right there and then. Hee.


Thank You

For always reminding me in your own little ways why I love you. You do it almost selflessly, so smoothly at times that I feel very fortunate to be your beloved other half. I am lucky indeed, masya’Allah.

10 years together this year – and I can still recall our happy pre-marriage memories with delight. It’s amazing how I am still so much in love with you. Yes, of course I get those crazy-I-so-wanna-strangle-my-husband moments but beyond all that is just my appreciation that you still choose me. Every day, every single minute, every single second.

I don’t know how you do it, but you manage to send and fetch me to and fro work daily from day one. I can probably count with my fingers the number of times you did not get to do so. I am so thankful, really. On those days whereby you have to work earlier or later, you try your very best to work around my work timings, and considering that my timings start very early and are not fixed at times, this says a lot. For this, thank you.

The daily routine of us sending our boys, you sending me to work, you returning to prepare Eyshan for school and send him, and then finally driving to work. Just typing it out makes me tired (haha) but there you go, doing it every single day and I honestly do not hear you grumbling about it at all. For this, thank you.

On some days, we are lucky enough to be able to squeeze a little date just before fetching the boys. Let me tell you just how much I look forward to it. Our date can be as boring as grocery-shopping, a quick Encik Tan’s early dinner or even a movie, but it is always fun. I get to spend time just with you. I get to talk to you about anything under the sun in the car. In that one or two hours, it is just all about us. I love it. For this, thank you.

Like today, I left my phone in the car after you sent me to work. I told you that you did not have to send it back. I knew it would be so troublesome. We sent Eyshan to school, sent Eijaz to our helper, had breakfast then picked Eyshan up before sending me to work. You then still had to send Eyshan back. Yet, you still delivered the phone to me. I was afraid you would nag and scold me, but all you said was, “next time don’t do this kinda thing again okay.” For this, thank you.

So many other things but really, all in all, you are perfect for me. Thank you for loving me.



First Day Of School

It was Eyshan Shahin’s first day of school on 3 January. He has always been a fan of school but lately during the holidays last year, he’d reminisce about his old school. It was like he missed his old school and friends a lot.

Whenever I broached the topic of his new school, he’d respond rather solemnly. I know it’s a rather temporary feeling; I get all the jitters of a new change myself, what more a little child.

We have been thinking and discussing about how we needed him to start going up together with his baby brother in the morning. For some reason, he just prefers to be with me in the morning. He practically sent me to work for the whole of 2016. No doubt I love the company definitely, but felt he could do with more proper sleep or rest when he is not in the car.

So the time came for us to just be firm one of the days during the last week of December. Thankfully he took it well and Masya’Allah I think everything just fell into its right place after that. The boys now go up together before Sadiq sends me to work.

His typical cheeky self. Very proud of him for being cool about school. May he always continue to embrace new changes with much grace and confidence.

May he also grow up to be an intelligent, fine young man too. Insya’Allah amin.


So amusing to hold conversations with Eyshan these days. I love how I am being reminded to constantly watch my language and actions around him. He really absorbs them words up like a sponge. It is also hilarious to witness him being a little Elvy. There are days where he goes, “Wow, this is amazing!” “Good morning my baby!” (I say this every morning to him and now he says it to little Eijaz once he wakes up, seriously my heart melts hearing it) or “Eh malu, you cannot show this to others” – of course, the last statement is in relation to private parts.

Yes, there are days where he goes all commando right after a shower or pee and ta-dah! he decides to show off to everyone in the house. No matter how many times I tell him not to. Sigh boys.

Anyway, he catches on to our dialogues really fast. I hear him mimicking our daily sentences most days and the best part is he remembers it well enough to repeat them accurately when the time calls for it.

Like the other time where he had to make a big step to avoid falling into the small drain, I could see how he was actually a bit apprehensive in doing so. Like, “Oh no, will I fall if I do it?” kinda statements were floating in his head, I bet. So I cheered him on and said, “C’mon you can do this sayang! Stretch your leg and you’ll be safe!” True enough he managed to (actually the longkang also not that big lah hehe).

Next day, the same thing happened and before I could even become his cheerleader, I heard him mutter to himself, “I can do this, I can do this.” And jumped he did confidently, with a proud grin on his face.

Whoa at that point of time, macam goosebumps sey. I was kind of astounded because I really did not expect that motivational self-talk almost immediately. Dawned on me that kids absorb things so fast and every single second is actually a teachable moment.

Still learning to be the best mother to my kids…and I dare say, my teachers in this field are definitely my children. ❤

Happy Birthday, Me!

This morning just before my husband sent our firstborn to my in-laws’ place, he wished me a happy birthday.

He returned, got dressed for work and gave me a peck on my forehead like always. He wished me a happy birthday again with his right hand caressing my left cheek.

I was still in a groggy state of mind, half awake and half nursing my little precious. All I could afford was an mmhmm thank you.

The other day, he cheekily remarked that my birthday present would be delayed. He even chuckled that maybe he could get something from Carousell first. Tsk tsk so naughty.

Alhamdulillah I’ve got the most wonderful gift this year – the arrival of our 2nd hero and it’s beautiful how my prayers for a December baby was answered. Life since has been a happy riot so far and I know we will not want to have it another way.

There is really nothing more I would ask for. The past 28 years have sculpted me the way I am today and I believe I will always enjoy this journey ahead, with His consent. Happy birthday, me. 🙂

Emo Nemo

There are a thousand things I love about my husband, but the best one has got to be how he willingly embraces the choices I make without any kind of judgement. Never the type to violently object to them, providing a sense of assurance that he knows exactly what I am doing. He gives me the appropriate space necessary and most importantly, trusts me well to know that I am entitled to my own decisions.

He rarely breathes down his expectations on me…to say that we are extremely alike in thinking is not a fact definitely, we are worlds apart sometimes, but I like how we respect each other’s mindset.

There have been so many occasions whereby I am thankful he walks along with me in the plans and decisions I make. Not ahead, not behind, but just right beside me, holding my hand…

Thank you Sadiq. I love you.